On Mother's Day this year I thought-a lot. I thought about my babies- each and every one of them. I thought about how each of them has changed my life and have changed it for the better. I thought about how if it were not for each of them existing- even for a very short time- then others would not have touched my life and made tiny footprints on my heart. I thought about the pain of the loss and every step of the bumpy road that has led me to this very instant. Then- I mostly thought of you.
I thought about how I'm not sure if I have told you thank you enough. If I have shared with you that if it were not for you- for the kind of mother you have been to Sheila, I would not have the life I do. You gave me my life back- you certainly did. Your strength, your courage, your guidance has allowed us to receive God's greatest miracle- our Colin Sean. Thank you will never be enough. There will never be words to sum up our gratitude. My hope is that you feel it- that you somehow can feel a small measure of what we feel each minute we spend with Colin. There is not an hour that goes by in a day that I do not marvel at every inch of him. I say small prayers of thanks to God for bringing us all together and for listening to my pleas. I say prayers of thanks for you- for your selflessness, for your strong bond with both Eily and Colin and for our friendship.
We love you more than you will ever know.
studying trains....
whistling like trains....
riding on trains...
searching...
searching...
and searching for more trains...
and screaming for trains....
