This Gift

On Mother's Day this year I thought-a lot. I thought about my babies- each and every one of them. I thought about how each of them has changed my life and have changed it for the better. I thought about how if it were not for each of them existing- even for a very short time- then others would not have touched my life and made tiny footprints on my heart. I thought about the pain of the loss and every step of the bumpy road that has led me to this very instant. Then- I mostly thought of you.

I thought about how I'm not sure if I have told you thank you enough. If I have shared with you that if it were not for you- for the kind of mother you have been to Sheila, I would not have the life I do. You gave me my life back- you certainly did. Your strength, your courage, your guidance has allowed us to receive God's greatest miracle- our Colin Sean. Thank you will never be enough. There will never be words to sum up our gratitude. My hope is that you feel it- that you somehow can feel a small measure of what we feel each minute we spend with Colin. There is not an hour that goes by in a day that I do not marvel at every inch of him. I say small prayers of thanks to God for bringing us all together and for listening to my pleas. I say prayers of thanks for you- for your selflessness, for your strong bond with both Eily and Colin and for our friendship.

We love you more than you will ever know.